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If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
but I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through
and I hope you are the one I share my life with…

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I praying you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?

* titipan temans… kok pas ya?? xixixixixi…. =P

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I kept getting a past hit by Alanis Morissette stuck in my head:

"Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
when you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right
and life has a funny way of helping you out
when you think everything’s gone wrong and
everything blows up in your face"

Will you end up living a better life worrying about how things will not turn out fine?

It got me thinking about expectations and experience. In services marketing, the feeling of satisfaction comes about when a customer experiences better than what he expects, and vice versa.

After all, is life merely about meeting your expectations? Say, I’m picky about men when it comes to relationships - thus I’ve been single, and I don’t seem to be satisfied.

But does it mean I should start worrying about that, in essence reducing my expectations so that the chance of being satisfied will increase?

*gue yang lagi capek ma pikiran-pikiran gue sendiri… hiks

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Last night during coffee with a good friend, it occurred to me how in life while one thing leads to another, sometimes one person also leads to another.

When I first moved to Jakarta, I got to know him (Boy A) online who happened to live live nearby and had just returned from studying in Sydney. We decided to meet up in person, and he quickly became the first friend in my new friends circle. What followed was man A introduced me to yet another overseas Boy B, whom six months later brought a visiting friend out (Girl C). Six months later after returning home Girl C introduced me to Girl D online, yet another passer-by in Jakarta.

Surely people meet people through their friends, or friends’ friends. In my case, it took three individuals and a year to meet Girl D. Had either Boy A or I decided not to log online for chat that day, all the twists and turns, all the encounters during my time here would not have eventuated.

It got me thinking; we go through everyday like a pinball machine. Once the ball drops to one side of aspects, it’s almost impossible to shift to the other side - it may only try to shift as close as luck and gravity dictate. Well what can you do? As they say, live with it.

So after all, what did the Girl D experience entail? Boy A, B and Girl C have since become good friends, there hasn’t been any Boy or Girl E and the pinball has almost reached the bottom hole.

Maybe time for another go.

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Weeeeeeell….. Welcome back Mr. Jack Bauer!!!!!
wooooooooo hooooooooo….

As a fans of 24 series since the 1st Season, I’m freaking waiting for this season for about 20 months after last season’s shocking finale, when Jack Bauer was captured by Chinese government agents and taken, battered and bloodied, to points unknown. After a series of horrific terrorist attacks, USA President and his team of advisors, as well as Jack’s CTU colleagues, begin an unthinkable, nail-biting day.

24, it may not always make sense and people tend to heal fast in a 24 hours period, but it always keeps you guessing and excited. This season looks like it will deliver. The Non-Stop New Season of 24 picks up 20 months after the Chinese kidnap Jack Bauer! Without ruining a thing I beg you all to show this episode. It’s best TV show on Television. Each week I sit on the edge of my seat like nervous belly stunned and shocked with what the writers come up with next (Great works… Mr. Sutherland…!!!). This 6 four hours season premier lives up to its expectations!! You will poop yourself during the last minutes of episode 4 just like I did!!!

Hwaaaaaaaah… CAN’T HARDLY WAIT FOR THE NEXT 20 HOURS!!!!!!

PS: as Macintosh user, I think Jack and CTU should ditch their smart-phones and use iPhone. Why? It has the most secured OS installed and it’s built by a company that’s more secretive than the CIA… huehehehehehehe… =P

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Yes, I saw the movie. Did I like it? Yes… I liked it. Did I love it? Not so much. I think it’s because for me, Gore was preaching to the converted. A lot of it I had heard and seen before. The evidence isn’t new for those of us already in the thick of it. I’m a lawyer, not an atmospheric scientist. I’m just interested in science and lends to scientific study. The movie was powerful because it SHOWED people what is happening while keeping the actual science jargon to a minimum. I think that aspect of it was amazing. What I felt the movie lacked was direction. Okay Gore…yeah…there’s all these problems; now suggest to me what the hell I’m supposed to do. Turning off a few lights is not the answer. When the movie finished I found myself kinda feeling like, "hmmm… interesting and amazing… so what are some ‘action items’ I can take away from that film". The movie could have provided a platform for change rather than a mechanism of promoting fear (but …on a positive note… awareness is there).

I’m happy I saw it and I do think it is something that everyone should see. It does make you think. But how many people have already watched this movie…and two weeks later have forgotten about it? Action and long-term messaging… it was missing it, who’s going to pick up the slack?

PS : I still looking for these Al Gore’s book. Can anyone help me find those book here???

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I have several single friends out there that read this blog religiously and I wanted to direct you to a few STC quotes that were shared with me more than 2 years ago (gasp!) when I got myself out of something:

1) Relationships have been on the decline ever since women came out of the cave, looked around and said, "this isn’t so bad."

2) No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you’ll never get through it without your friends.

3) Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they’re supposed to run wild until they find someone — just as wild — to run with.

Bottom line: Whatever quote works for you… or doesn’t… you aren’t defined by your intimate relationships. Finding yourself after 2 years, 4 years, 7 years together can be daunting…but it’s also fun. Having good girlfriends in the mix doesn’t hurt either.

Best solutions: Go dancing with your girlfriends and/or have dinner parties with loads of wine and friendly faces. Rebound boys/girls aren’t so bad either.

Sorry kalo agak sedikit basi.. hihihihi..
Gara-gara bantuin acara nikahan one of a good friend seharian tadi, the questions about being a single lil bit disturbing my mind up till now!!!….
Hwuaaaaah… capek deeeeeh!

For Conny and Budi, happy marriage yaaaaa… may u both live happily ever after…

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o·ver·in·dulge (vr-n-dlj)

v. o·ver·in·dulged, o·ver·in·dulg·ing, o·ver·in·dulg·es
1. To indulge (a desire, craving, or habit) to excess: overindulging a fondness for chocolate.
2. To indulge (a person) excessively: overindulges his children.
To indulge in something to excess.

I
think I over-indulged many times over this weekend. Company, visitors,
music, eating dinners out, walks for breakfasts and staying up way too
late. I’m paying for it today. Its only noonish and I’m tired and ready
for a nap. I’m learning to do what I want, when I want, and indulge in
what I wish. It’s tough sometimes being yourself out in the open and
letting people see you let your hair down, but I’m starting to just
feels right for me….and worrying less about everyone else. Thanks to
all who participated in this weekends events.

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(from an email of a friend too… kurang kerjaan banget yaks gue… =P)

When the staff goes out together after work, they talk about football or basketball.

When middle management gets together, they talk about tennis or baseball.

Top management discusses golf.

Conclusion:
The higher up you are in management, the smaller your balls are =)

PS: I hope my boss hasn’t subscribed here!! wakakakakaka =))

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from a friend’s email send to me today
thanks Veita.. =)

  There are only two things in life to worry about:
  Whether you are well
  or whether you are sick.

  If you are well,
  then there is nothing to worry about.

  But if you are sick,
  there are only two things to worry about:

  Whether you are going to get well
  or whether you are going to die.

  If you get well,
  then there is nothing to worry about.

  But if you die,
  there are only two things to worry about:

  Whether you are going to go to heaven
  or whether you are going to go to hell.

  If you go to heaven,
  then you have nothing to worry about.

  But if you go to hell,
  you’ll be so busy shaking hands with all your friends,
  that you won’t have time to worry!

  So, Why Worry?

  Be Happy

  Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day,
  because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars.
                                  
   
   
   
   
   
   
                                 
                                  
                           

sound so simple, huh?
wha’d ya think?
i think we all are going to hell?
….hehehehehehehehehehehehehe…. =))

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A co-worker walked into my office and asked what I was listening to on my earphone. I wonder what make he asked me that question.

I’m a huge music fan. It’s true. During my undergrad years while I was working on my thesis, all I could do was sit and listen to music. I had a discman and 3 or 4 full books of cds. I’d trade cds with friends, share music, and hit concerts and shows (usually in time for second set) after work. Some of the artists only sang to me once or twice…but others would sit in my discman for days. I’ve now upgraded. I don’t use a discman, I have an iPOD. It’s almost time to upgrade to a bigger one… My musical interests are varied and its so hard to be selective when choosing who to put on my pod.

The below song, by George Michael and Mary J. Blige, is at the top of my list of songs to put on repeat. I don’t know why this song suddenly crosses my mind all the way from home to the office this morning. And, according to my iTunes, it repeat for about 25 times up to now… *blush*

The reason I love this song : just read the lyric… it’s tell you everything… (and I love the video clip too!!!).

                               As – George Michael & Mary J. Blige

As around the sun the earth knows she’s revolving
And the rosebuds know to bloom in early may
Just as hate knows love’s the cure
You can rest your mind assure
That I’ll be loving you always

As now can’t reveal the mystery of tomorrow
But in passing will grow older every day
Just as all is born is new
Do you know what I say is true
That I’ll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until the day that 8×8x8 is 4
Until the day is the day that are no more

Did you know that true love asks for nothing
Her acceptance is the way we pay
Did you know that life has given love a guarantee
To last through forever and another day

As today I know I’m living but tomorrow
Could make me the past But that I mustn’t fear
I know deep in my mind The love of me I’ve left behind
Cause I’ll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea
Until we dream of live and live becomes a dream

Until the day is night and night becomes the day
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away
Until the day that 8×8x8 is 4
Until the day that is the day that are no more

Did you know that true love asks for nothing
Her acceptance is the way we pay
Did you know that life has given love a guarantee
To last through forever and another day

As around the sun the earth knows she’s revolving
And the rosebuds know to bloom in early may
For now I know deep in my mind The love of me I’ve left behind
Cause I’ll be loving you always

Until the rainbow burns the stars out in the sky
Until the ocean covers every mountain high
Until the dolphin flies and parrots live at sea
Until we dream of live and live becomes a dream

Until the day is night and night becomes the day
Until the trees and seas just up and fly away
Until the day that 8×8x8 is 4
Until the day that is the day that are no more

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